Dear Heavenly Father,
I’ve got a problem. My thoughts can often be out-of-control with sexual ideations. I don’t want them, but I still embrace them, then I’m devastated by their effect on my life and well-being. These thoughts insult my wife. She is unaware that in my mind, I’m fantasizing about sexual interaction with other women, or even men. Please, give me a desire to overcome this moral decay in my life. It is hidden, it is private, I’ve ignored its power over me, rather than the richness of your fellowship. Give me hope. Give me affirmation, that this hidden issue need not control my heart and my life. I want to change this behavior in my life. I want you to manage it.
Lord, help me to esteem and value my wife. Don’t let me degrade her personhood, by harboring illicit thoughts about others. A woman, admires the man that admires her. Minister to me in my heart of hearts, so I trust my wife with my deepest needs, that are healthy and wholesome, and let us enjoy one another. Let her needs rise in my mind, and let my needs be readjusted to value her above my fantasies. Let my wife, be the foremost in my mind – even if I am single! Let me protect my sexuality, for the one whom you have prepared for me. “In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself” (Eph. 5:28). Help me love my wife, as Christ loves the Church: “Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her” (Eph. 5:25).
Help me Lord with this problem in my life. Help me be proactive, not letting myself believe that I can manage this on my own. I know you are available every moment to give me help. I plead for the awareness in my mind, of your presence. I pray this in Jesus’ name. Amen
